LETTERS to IRV     "The way to heaven"

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Feb/15/2018 06.53 p.m.

Dear Yalom,

Hi!!  I hope all is well with you. Well....I feel good.

 I actually would like to be in a simple stone cottage,  in a little safe forest and live there forever. I would like to sing jazz songs and use the blue-notes, love and cook and help the people in the Village which could be close to the forest. And I want rain sometimes and also snow sometimes but not a hurricane!! Not a thunder!! Not a fire! Not a war!! But peace and ofcourse power to struggle!?! ohhh...I also do need my computer and my ıphones because I will go on to write my feelings, thoughts and my endless metaphorical dreamsss.....

 I can make this dream come true. But when I definitely decide then I can make it. I feel well in the crowds but I believe that I will catch the flawless energy in an aura that I have been dreaming with. Cause I discover that there has been a catastrophic chaos in the metropoles like I live in. As soon as I complete my music career I will change my life route to a different and much more relaxing life-style which should be away from the materalistic loop of the business life. Because the time is getting closer to ease the living for myself. I like doing easy things like; short drives, taking walks in the parks, writting my novels and poems and working on my songs at my heaven home. my all homes have been like heaven for me. I love sweet homes so much.  That means I dont' need huge areas and contemporary luxuries to live in....

Today, I saw one of my friends from consevatory, off to the other dimension. It was so much difficult for us but we had to see her off. She couldnt' fight with the disease anymore which she was having during her final year, here. She just gave up and has gone. My grief hasnt' been changed although I put some red carnations on the earth where she was burried. She was one of the most  famous singers in my country. And state ceremony was being held  for her funeral till the last resting place of hers. Goodbye forever to herrr....

I would like to declare that the life and the death are on the same level.

Have a nice dayyyyy!!!

GV,

Farah