LETTERS to IRV     "The way to heaven"

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Jan/16/2018 9.30 p.m.
Dear Yalom,
 
Hello! I couldn’t write to you for a few days. I sometimes use the comfort of being free. I would like to be free and be with myself and with some other people! I like changing the subjects and persons  for a while. Then I can breathe much better! I love people but do prefer to keep distance between me and them. Even if it is my lovely daughter! I like this way and this way keeps me more relaxed and joyful and peaceful. You know I wouldnt’ want to disturb my beautiful thoughts and feelings! And I
 
Definitely don’t  by using this way. I usually give before I take but If I don’t take anything and I give many things then I stop and get back! And this makes me feel better! I don’t give unless I should take what I deserve! If I give too much then I start to take all I gave back! This way keeps my wonderful energy in balance. So that I give enough then I take enough! I don’t want to take too much! I want to take enough! Ohhh! I mean this can be attention, love, money... etc.., anything I am writting about. I seem to be a soft person but if I get angry I am not that person anymore! I love this way! It makes me feel strong and happy. I believe in friends and I feel so sorry for the enemies! I have never been an enemy! I always have worked for good things!! I have enough compassion in my soul! But if the person that I keep my compassion for, intends to cheat me then I can become not an harmful person but very tough! Then that person feels so shy with the low attitudes he or she had to me. And this way really has taken me to ‘the way to Heaven’...!...
 
 Today I have prepared a New Year Lunch for the big family. And I got happy with them. We had fun. It is nice to be in a good family. Very nice! My uncle, my aunt, my mother and my father  made the table-pray one by one at the end of the lunch. We all thanked God for everything. My lovely cousin was with us, as well. And two housemaids of my parents. They were with us at the table not in the kitchen. And here I am. I feel tired and will go to bed early because tomorrow will be a busy day for me. I hope you do fine. I wish you a nice afternoon!
 
Farah