Nov/ 28/2017 09:11
... is that The Oceans' sound of the strong waves, in the film!?! The sound of the Ocean reminds me that the dream I had just after Sinems' sudden losss! She was in a home and baby and was in a very very big room! The walls were velvet and baby-pink and the velvet was quilted! And there were diamonds on the corners of the rhombuses!! And Sinem's mother was just like her last sight while she was here!! But she had light blue eyes! I had an inexpressible comfort after that dream! It did affect me so much! I can feel her in the Yaloms' cure, In between the waves of the ocean! The house that she was born in was just beside the Pacific Ocean! But the Ocean was so shiny under the magic lights of mersmerising Sun! I feel myself there while I hear that unique sound of the strong waves! How wonderful that is! I stil obviously am very close to her! Her priceless energy which I could see myself in it! She was a great mirror to me! Thank you, İrv! Thank you make me feel closer to her! :))
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This evening I have prayed God and sent him my appreciation to have sent me to witness this unique aura and have been experiencing this beautiful life with its’ everything! After fourties, I have learnt not forcing myself too much but I always have forced my limits! And thank God I have done it. That is why I have become stronger and stronger! After I reached fifties, I have started to think that a warm bath and a cup of light tea and a bed are enough to feel peaceful! And I have tested it and yes! They are enough to feel peaceful! I used to think that it was not possible without money! But I have made very fine with 5$ for three days! Money is everything but sometimes nothing! I surely still like luxuries but quite more far away from that part of the life now! The reason is the reality of the life! It has been so much complicated actually! I never could solve it out yet.
There are some occasions that you really can’t solve them out! Living is really something difficult but qualified living is much much more difficult! I have had to struggle with each second in whole my life. But there always has been a pushing-button in my soul to motivate me and not let me to leave the life! I can not say that I have a pure peace and happiness! But more peaceful than ever and quite happy although my princess’ loss. I try to accept the trick of the existence of us! There is a trick! There is a secret mystery while we enjoy the life! Anything could happen anytime! This is the trick! So I have learnt to be ready for anything, anytime!! As I hear some noises of the children from my upper-floor neighbours’ apartment I have started to feel sleepy! And good morning to you, I suppose!!....
LETTERS to IRV "The way to heaven"