LETTERS to IRV     "The way to heaven"

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October/7/2018 6.24 pm

~~~Today is Sunday~~ and it has been a very sunny day~~as I was looking out my kitchens' window I saw the Autumn leaves were shinning on the grass which is still quite green~~and with the emotion that I have from those moments, I suddenly have remembered or noticed that there is a huge missing in my soul~~missing~~missing endlesslyyy~~

~~~Missing sometimes takes me to heaven but if there is no hope in the end then it takes me to hell~~well~~I have to take it as positive ~~and I think I had better use the feelings in positive and transfer them to the words which land on papers, on pages or on  the magic blue notes that I use while I perform my great jazz songs~~

~~~And the other day, I have discovered that I always had better have better feelings, here; in this great temporary life ~~regretting is mostly a very unfortunate action~~I dont' want to regret anymore~~and that is why I have to hold my feelings and thoughts in a very stable balance in my soul and on my mind~~because my precious life deserves this till the very end~~

~~~God bless you all who forgive and apologize on time~~many thanks to you all for these beautiful actions~~I have promised myself that I wil miss and forgive and apologize forever with no  hesitation~~these are the most positives of this endlessly beautiful life actually~~missing is something more peaceful than to witness dissapointments~~negativesss~~~~ :)

farah