December/ 01/2017 05.07 a.m.
.......Lovely December has come in today! I love this month so much....Because almost everywhere gets full of lights! It is fun! And takes me out of the complications of the life for a while! And the weather gets colder. It is beautiful! My body and soul like ‘cold’ so muchhh! I always look forward to witnessing the snow in Decembers! And it usually does here! We used to play snow-ball games with the girls in our garden and now I remember those white memories and feel happy in my soul!
Yesterday, I saw that there still were lots of falling- Fall leaves on the ground! And I felt so much relaxed after I had stayed outside for seven hours in the busy traffic to do lots of personal needs of myself!! This city is really so much beautiful under the lights and with almost empty streets at nights but too much busy always and always during the daytimes! It gets too hard to go from somewhere to another by car! I sometimes prefer to use the sea transportation to go to Asian side. It is so much nice to see the sea-gulls which follow the ferry all the way long and I sometimes give the little bread crumbs to them that I collect in the freezer at home and have put in my handbag! They always finish them rapidly! Are they always hungry!??? :))
07.45 p.m.
While the day falls into the night I feel lonely and alone but as soon as the night falls into darkness I get relaxed and enjoy that time! I don’t like watching the series on TV but I like to hear from all over the Planet! That’s why I choose to watch CNN international and learn a lot more everyday! How can I be very happy as far as Sinem has left too soon and lots of refugees and people are suffering from wars in their countries. how can I be hundred percent happy!? Ofcourse not possible but I have to use the tricks to go more forward and also not to miss even a second and taste the joys and sorrows till the very end! This is the point of the peaceful life. I have to touch anything I see on my way. There is no need to run away from one to another! So that means I have to accept all while I do struggle.
LETTERS to IRV "The way to heaven"