LETTERS to IRV     "The way to heaven"

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Dec/20/2017 06.58
Good evening to you.. the lavenders on Yaloms’ cure that have been swinging by the power of the soft wind and assisting to that, the ringing church bell, have been pushing me to this unique life which sometimes also can be intolerable. I sometimes do get in trouble even while I shop and have to communicate with the people as salesclerks and cashiers.

You know... I feel so much well and I could say that almost hundred percent well in between lavender fields or in a little forest and in a modern cottage under the snow or on the stage with a respectful audience and real listeners to my interpretations. You see I make the things very easy to feel happier. And I quite often can do. Ohhh... I have forgotten the sound of the waves of the Ocean...it makes me to stop for a while and then makes me to regulate my body and mind and soul energy for the beginning day. The power of the nature has been incomparable with anything else in life. I mean to me, like this.

I surely cannot talk about any others.  And I heard the voice of Ezan just alittle while ago. I always have been impressed by the sound of Ezan, as well. The sound of Ezan and church-bell always have made me closer to my unique bliefs in the religions. And at that point, I always have felt so much more patient and respectful to the others around me and I also have remembered the death and all these perceptions in my soul have made me to have my self-discipline actions much more strongly. 

This is why I feel myself on the way to heaven. I always have put my desires on the second place after my self-discipline, self-respect and this action of mine almost always has made me to find the rightest  way. I prefer not the instant happinesses but I do prefer to feel happy for long terms. I usually don’t use the happiness only for myself but I like sharing it with the others. I do get jealous of the others’ happiness but I never spoil their happines but I try to catch that special feeling for myself and I quite have succeeded on this, upto now. Life is happiness. You see there is another explanation of life. I can write thousands of words about happiness and life.

Life is the one which offers us the happiness or sadness. And on the way to heaven I accept both. :)) so that I can walk on this inexpressible way with easy steps. I always apologize and forgive on time. But there have been a few cases of my life which I even couldn’t have the answers neither in the holly books nor with the wise people who I have shared with. And I accept those cases with sweet surrender but do react to them with all my cells. I wish you very happy retirement. And please stay happy till the next letter.
Respects,
Farah