Mummy

My pinky girl~ What happened to us?! Because I couldnt’ see you for one hundred and thirtyone months ~ where have you been?! I dont’ remember anything, anyone without you~ the day that you left us; has been approaching and I can feel that dayy and it smells you know~ it smells pain and grief and devastation and each square that I have been in, for about one month has been empty and too much painful without you~ Where did u go?! İs it not pıssible to come back for some days?! You were in my dream the other night~ and you were about 4 years old and you were hugging me too strongly~ when I woke in the middle of the night then I felt so desperate and painful and hopeless~ because ıt only was a dream~ I cant do here at all, without you, my dreamy daughter~ I hope you walk at the stars and sleep under the lights of heaven ~ I give up ~ sorry~ Mummy