Mummy

I still hide myself into the feeling that as if you still are and live here but somewhere so far from me and from your sis~ because this feeling~ this thought helps me to survive and struggle with the endless grief of your sudden loss~ it has been one hundred and twenty three months since you left us :(( believe me that I sometimes feel that all my bones do burn with your physical loss~ but on the other side, I feel so much close to you and I sometimes feel that your unique smelling energy walks around me and in our heaven home~ our heaven home is still Heaven although a fire ball fell into it and had become hell~ but the greatest memories that we had in the past while you were here; do treat me so well~ Well there have been a few negative memories with you in the past~ and I even miss them ~ rest please~ I hope you walk around the stars~ I still do have the same love feelings for you~ still~ and I do miss your wonderful smelling energy so very much~ Mummy xxxx