Mummy!

My sweet daughter, I couldnt' see and touch u and have never heard your voice for sixteen months! I cannot return to the real life, yet. Things and objects and people are like dreams for me. As if I cant' see what is going around me. The feelings and thoughts that your loss brought me are so hard and unmeaningful. But I do try to catch the energy for more qualified living as u tought me in the past. there is only thing that I know that I do miss u immensely. Your wonderful sister is the only one who is real for me. and I cant' feel the rest at all. I would love to join this beautiful life again but no success! My best friend! I did and do respect death but you!!